butchbaby transes gender
27.02.2026
In some circles, FTM means 'first time mom' and I'm starting to feel like FTM might also mean 'first time man'. Everything feels like a first right now. Baby boy's first steps, first time having sex, first tattoo, first meal, first cry. I cried yesterday for nearly no reason--its begun. Puberty II.
26.02.2026
Yesterday at work I told my coworkers about wanting confetti in the first box of HRT. So today we went and rang a gong to celebrate. It was very satisfying. I never would've thought to do that on my own and it was so wonderful to be seen in that way. I felt very loved and affirmed. A softer guy, or a younger version of myself would've cried. Instead I smiled really big and felt kinda warm inside. My other big thing I want to do is start working out. This morning I did some research into local gyms and soon my darling roommate and I are going to pick one and hold each other accountable.
24.02.2026
I took my first dose of testosterone! Its funny to do something that will alter the course of your life but there's no fanfare. They should include some confetti in your first box of HRT. Congrats! It's You're a boy! Obviously I won't feel any different yet but I'm so excited to start noticing things. Will it start with my right shoulder? Will my right shoulder slowely become more boyish until it spreads across my whole body?
12.02.2026
I guess part of this adventure is going to be telling my folks more about my identity. Today I had a conversation with my mom about transness that was much much longer than any other conversation I've had with her about it before. It still makes me reel but I survived it, and honestly I think she's accepted that there are things she won't understand about me and my gender. And that's pretty cool.
09.02.2026
Today I had my HRT consult and got a refferal to an endocronologist! Next week I'm going to go in and get labs done (which will suck bad) which I guess will help them choose my dosage. I'm really excited about this :) obviously I guess. I've never been so excited to get my blood drawn lol. I think I should wrap some STD/STI testing into it while I'm there. Just bc its time to do that anyway. I'm such a nerd about everything, I felt bad for the psych I was on zoom with because I kept just being like 'yeah I know' about everything. I wish I had the capacity to act like I'm interested in hearing stuff I already know.
26.01.2026
My appointment is set-- two weeks from now. Not sure who you're supposed to tell this kind of stuff to, but I guess I'll just tell the whole internet. Not that many people will read this. I'm doing it! The thing I've been dreaming of :) Being an adult is pretty cool sometimes.
22.01.2026
I got a referral to the gender clinic for starting hrt from my PCP! Exciting